this ache so deep it pulls on my insides and sets them ablaze.
this constant feeling of inferiority because im always the one who calls.
this distance that sets me as far away from you as it does to my father.
this fear to tell you how i feel.
this gnawing on my chest with teeth so razor sharp.
this excuse for a friendship because a lie is what we’re built on.
this,
that i love you and am unconditionally…
oh but what is this love.